something from my journal a little over a year ago

We change without knowing it, we love without meaning it, and we live - not noticing its happening.

destiny?

good night world

This has been a very long and productive week. It feels like I am on a bit of winning streak at school. I've just found a brain space that is working and helping to keep me motivated and pushing forward. I've made a lot of progress with my voice in lessons since coming back from reading week, and I am getting excited for the end of term and singing at my final jury. I am also feeling like I have a handle on my academic courses and I just need to maintain my motivation until exams are all out of the way.

Now that this school week has come to a close I am starting to feel the wear and tear of being a person. I am ready for some much needed rest - now excuse me while I sleep in until Monday.

magical music

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“All I have seen teaches me to trust the Creator for all I have not seen.”
Ralph Waldo Emerson

Snow

Out of the bosom of the Air,

      Out of the cloud-folds of her garments shaken,

Over the woodlands brown and bare,

      Over the harvest-fields forsaken,

            Silent, and soft, and slow

            Descends the snow.

Even as our cloudy fancies take

      Suddenly shape in some divine expression,

Even as the troubled heart doth make

      In the white countenance confession,

            The troubled sky reveals

            The grief it feels.

This is the poem of the air,

      Slowly in silent syllables recorded;

This is the secret of despair,

      Long in its cloudy bosom hoarded,

            Now whispered and revealed

            To wood and field.

- Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

take a deep breath, step back, everything is wonderful

Sometimes I find myself freaking out over the silliest smallest things.
Life is so short. Days fly by so fast. It is not worth it to worry for a minute.
Life is good and great and even when there are tears, I will survive and smiles are just around the corner.

21

17

As most of my endeavors go, this one fizzled out. Time to rekindle.
10 to 17... that's just a bit of a gap.
This past week I survived my first non-music course midterm. Oh Women's and Gender Studies. I enjoy the content and do the readings, which made the 58 multiple choice answer questions a breeze - hopefully I did alright by the scan-tron sheet... that was the first time I have had an official fill in the bubble test. We'll see how that went soon enough I guess.

ON TO READING WEEK!
No classes for a week.
Although I still have lessons and masterclass... which will be great and I will take advantage of that because I like singing. 
Time to learn some stuff for my musical skills midterm. Oh sol-fa, how you melt my brain.

10

Birthday girl

Today my little sister turned 10. We have entered the double digits folks! Run for cover!

French music and a Midnight in Paris

Yesterday was a long, busy, adventurous, successful, and living large kind of day.
9:15am I had a french recital to sing at, which had me scared beyond all belief(French and I don't really get along). I did my thing, and it may not have been my best performance of life, but I was very satisfied with the result. I held on to my confidence and ended with a smile. There were no huge holes or brain blocks or noticeable flubs, so I was pleased with my self.
After I went on to tea with friends and a nice long makeup lesson with my voice teacher, My lessons are always interesting. My teacher is currently focusing on the inspiration and motivation to achieving a goal... which seems to involve more talking than singing at the moment. Which is alright, but singing is what I am here for!
After my lesson I went on to theory class, which was long and dry, but helpful as we work towards the chapter test on Monday. I just need to find some motivation to pick up and pencil and plug through my theory hand out sheets...
After school I went to visit the boyfriend at his school and then he came over and kept me company while I got ready for the music formal.
I had a wonderful evening. The theme of the dance was 'Midnight in Paris' which was presented in the form of a chirstmas-esque light up Eiffle Tower and candy. The food was tasty, and the company superb. Unfortuantely the boyfriend wasn't able to come... next time I need to buy tickets sooner to avoid that problem.
Surprising my feet aren't too sore today after dancing the night away, although my big and baby toes are a little more pink than usual...