trying not to push

Will you come and whisper yes into my heart. Will you draw a map in the stars to guide me ever home, to the home I am meant to find.
I want to have every thing that I can take and fulfill every promise that has been made. I want to love and be loved until there is no room for fear or doubt. I want to shine brighter than the thousand fireflies glowing in my chest.
I am waiting and rushing, trying not to push to far ahead - going no further than I can control.
I see happiness and I see hurt in the world that I live in and the lives that I touch. I want to find a way to fix the things I break, and not be the reason for anyone's hurt, especially not my own. 
I'd like to ask for forgiveness, because I know I'll never earn it.